Colossians 3:23-24 New International Version (NIV)
23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
This is part 2 in my Fearful series called Fearful: working. My prayer is that this will set you free. In whatever work you do that may you be reminded that in all that you do you do it for the service of One.
I have been trapped in a line of thinking that forced me to put my life into boxes. No one part of my life could touch the other for fear that I would somehow fall short of the expectations I had placed on myself. I have always strove to be a good person, to do things the right way and to follow the rules. What I was doing was working out of fear. I was afraid to not be perfect and fit into the expectations that I perceived everyone had for me. Because of this I was truly afraid to live my everyday life for God. I have always been a hard worker and because of my perfectionist tendencies I am very good at what I do, but there has been no life to what I have been doing because I have not been working for the Lord. Let me clarify, it does not matter what my ‘job’ was, I realize that now, I never allowed that particular platform to be something I was doing for God. I have been so afraid of what people would think of me that I refused to let Jesus bleed out of me onto everything I touched.
I have a unique job where God has almost been removed from it completely. This is also the very place that He is so desperately needed but in the world in which we live He is not just uninvited, those who do invite him in are targeted and eliminated as quickly as possible. For a lot of years I lived with that fear in the back of my mind. As I have stated in previous blogs, in the past I have not known who I am nor whose I am and that led to there being times where I was more concerned with holding onto my imagined control in keeping my job than letting Jesus be who I am. As I have grown in the Lord and begun to let Him remove layers of junk like paint over beautiful wood floors, I have felt and lived out a strength that is not my own. There has grown within me an understanding of who I am and in this growth it has become impossible to not see Him in every little facet of my job. I have also found a freedom in what I have been doing, I am realizing that this job was never mine to begin with. Nothing that I do here on this earth is mine at all, it has always been His and it is by His Word and in His strength that any of it is done.The responsibility to keep me in this particular job has never been on my shoulders but always on His. As I write this to you I am acknowledging that I could have kept this on my own and kept Jesus out of it and in so doing I would have stunted, horribly, my walk with Jesus. My spiritual life, the part of me that gives life to every other part of me, would have stopped growing!! The very thought of it makes me want to cry because I would be missing out on all the things that Jesus has healed and redeemed and the adventure he offered to me as a result of obediently following Him.
The point is this, once I realized that everything I do can and should be done as though I am standing in a room teaching to an audience of One, The One, I found that I do my job better now than I have ever done in the past. If I can stand before Him with the honest heart that I am doing what can only be done through Him and for Him and set to His standards, then anyone else who happens to be a recipient to my teaching is getting the very best I have to offer. When I have that mindset there is no longer any room for fear. The very essence of freedom is knowing that I don’t have to live up to any standards pushed upon me by the world. I have already been made righteous by the blood of Jesus and I desire, out of a deep love relationship, to do everything that I do for the glory of the One who paid the ultimate price for me. No more boxes, no more fear, just freedom! What used to feel so oppressive to me now has a fresh breath of life to it because the One I serve every day is also the one who gives me the strength to do the very job that I am called to do. I admit that most days I have to get down on my knees and remind myself of this truth because the wave of the world around me tries to drown me under feelings of inadequacy. But when I remember that I will stand before Jesus, and my faith will be my eyes, and He will reward me with a crown that I will promptly lay at His feet I am renewed with the strength it takes to do what I have been called to today. May you bury this truth deep in your soul as you move forward in your work today and let the Lord be your focus and the hope of the reward that He offers keep breathing new life into you, in Jesus name!
Father I thank you for the work that you have offered to each and every one of Your children. Work that is truly fulfilling when we remember who we work for. I pray that each of Your children be renewed with a sense of hope and purpose as they do their jobs today. May the truth that they work for an audience of One renew their weary souls and strengthen their arms for the tasks set before them. Breathe fresh life into their work and bring a brand new perspective to them In Jesus Name!